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Listen and Understand

He who has ears to hear, let him hear  and  heed My words [ Matt11:15 Amplified ]. ** **             Listen; you think this is a game. Perhaps you think you’ll finesse your way last minute and you’ll make it in. Or you think grace will speak for your sorta- kinda-but-not-really commitment on that day. But grace is…

Observations

"If you can't change it, change your attitude." [Maya Angelou] ** I was thinking to myself yesterday that things really are shifting. My relationships are changing, and the way the changes are happening is just as peculiar. I don’t think I’ve ever been one for overdramatic uncouplings. But these quiet, u…

To Tell You The Truth...

What’s causing your lack of focus? Be honest. “I am afraid of failing. That I will try, and try, and keep trying,  and this ceiling above me won't break. I’m afraid  that in my discomfort  I won't know  how to rise above  it.   “I am afraid to take the risk. I’m afraid."   The thing about fear is it offe…

Interlude

[He who trusts in the Lord] is like a tree growing near a stream and sending out roots to the water. It is not afraid when hot weather comes, because its leaves stay green; it has no worries when there is no rain; it keeps on bearing fruit. Jeremiah 17:8 -|Good News Bible| ** * I like how calm you are. It’s taking qui…

Writing on the Wall

I’m learning to step back. Especially with work. I realize that I am too invested in the outcome of a thing sometimes that I lend my emotions in an inappropriate manner. By that I mean, I feel responsible for people and their actions, because I am invested in the positive outcome of what’s happening. In hindsight, t…

Self Reflection

pic via @coldlaundry  ** These thoughts of mine have been heavy. They’ve come like a flood; some days I’ve felt like I’m drowning, other days I’m floating with the current, but each time I’m being carried. I’m not steering or directing where I’m going. I found myself getting further and further away from my plans. I g…

Changes

I cannot say whether things will get better if we change; what I can say is they must change if they are to get better.” — Georg C. Lichtenberg ** Things are changing. I feel it. Are they changing for the better? Honestly, I don’t know. Something is happening but I can’t quite put my finger on it. The past month or so…

Single Girl Thoughts

I don’t talk about my dating life because there isn’t anything to say. I wish I had interesting stories or great insights into love, but I really don’t. One thing I will say is, this year I have been incredibly contente. This year is the first year in memory that I have thoroughly enjoyed being alone. I think it’s b…

Doubting Moments

And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.  |John 8:32| ** I don’t suppose you’ll tell me the truth? I may be wrong for assuming that you are lying, but I sincerely don’t know if you are not. I’ve been asked, What reason would there be for such a lie ? But liars don’t need a reason. And liars don’t …

How Do You Want To Be Remembered?

Breach   ·         an act of breaking a law, promise, agreement, or relationship ·         a hole that is made in a wall or in another structure being used for protection to make an opening in a wall or fence, especially in order to attack someone or someone behind it.  *** Have you ever thought about that? What kin…

Implications

Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses" Proverbs 27:6  ** I don’t normally find it “hard” to speak the truth to someone. I don’t mean that in a let-me-tell-this-person-about-themselves- truth.     But I mean in the sense if I have a concern and I feel it’s something that I should bri…

Show Me

Sometimes you make mistakes. Grave mistakes. Mistakes that when you look back, you cringe, and you look in the mirror, and you say to your reflection, “That’s not you.’ And you peer into the eyes staring back at you, and you ask, “What happened? You would never do that! I know you, and that wasn’t you.” And from tim…

Hindsight- Go Back

Sometimes, your fervent feelings and emotions build in you an expectation to possess something that your Spirit was not assigned - Chapter 1, Hindsight This isn’t the same as pursuing something that you know is for you and you’re overcoming hurdles.This is essentially pursing something but you ought to be doing so…

Hear Me

How long, o na├»ve ones (you who are easily misled) will you love being simple-minded and undiscerning? ( Proverbs 1:22 )   My heart is beginning to break for her. Break? No, let’s say weighed down by sadness. I almost feel sorry for her. She is wise in her own eyes, but doesn’t see that she is walking down a wide ro…

HINDSIGHT: OUT NOW

There are things that are outstanding that need to get completed, things remaining that must be established. It isn’t meant to bring anxiety or pressure; but it’s a call to alertness, a call to be intentional, a call to arise from existing like a tumbleweed, blown here and there, and everywhere, without a particular…