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Boundaries...boundaries.. He has no sense of boundaries. He talks, throws his back in laughter, telling his story. He looks at me and touches my arm. I stop myself from recoiling. He holds my gaze momentarily, then shyly he looks away and continues to talk.  He then touches my leg, and holds my knee until i move i…

Eyes Wide Shut

I am not angry with you for getting an abortion. I am angry with myself for letting you down. I am angry at them for letting us down. And I am angry that we let ourselves down. My heart aches, because all life is precious. He tells us that we are a gift, one that we should not despise, nor disrespect. I let y…

Lost Ones

Once upon a time I was in love with a man who didn't love me. It's too generous to say in love, but for a moment I believed it could turn into one of those loves that you read about; the timeless, endures-all-things types of love. I don't know why I felt that way about him. We had great ch…

Words To Myself

I love you, I really do. I know that sometimes I forget you and I don't speak nicely to you. I know I get impatient, and in my frustration I say things that I don't mean; things that are hurtful and at times spirit-crushing. I promise that from today on-wards I will be kind to you. I will speak gently.…

Freedom On the Horizon

There will come a generation that will have nothing to lose.   They will know their power and will set themselves free. They will use their power to take back what belongs to them. They will have justice; not because they ask for it. They will take back what belongs to them…what has been stolen. Th…

Baby Blues

I didn't know I was pregnant until I had a dream. I normally do not hold any stock to dreams, but this one was different. I don't know how to explain; it was as though I was finally living the life that I was created to live. I don't know. Words to describe it will only  be superfluous and contri…


I knelt down in prayer, asked for forgiveness for what I did. You cleansed me of my sin. I cut upon my heart; hands un-gloved, i reached for the hurt, the frustration, the lust, and laid it at your feet. I surrendered. I chose to believe you. Again. But through all the rejoicing, the clarity, the confidence, I…


She felt horribly insecure. These periods of insecurity were visiting her more than any other period in her life that she could recall. It was unfortunate, because when she believed in her dreams she did with all her soul, and although she constantly told herself not to reference that hurt in the past, its …