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Now think it over and see what you can do, because disaster is hanging over our master and his whole household. He is such a wicked man that no one can talk to him.” 1 Samuel 12:17 ** Run, Abigail, run quickly! Gather all the supplies that you can. Do not think of the unfairness of it all, or let your thou…


You are going through a rough season; it doesn’t mean God doesn’t care. He is a father who allows us to grow resilient through the rough times. It sucks. And our mental health often suffers, but this is life. Why does the pain, disappointment, loneliness, aloneness, prayers not quickly answered, and often despera…


He has besieged me and surrounded me with bitterness and hardship. He has made me dwell in darkness like those long dead| Lamentations 3:5-6| ** Do you ever think that your expectations of God are unreasonable?  Often we can identify people who have unreasonable expectations of others, or of you, but have yo…


Sometimes I’m thankful, and then I wonder what if...? Sometimes I’m grateful but think to myself how things would be different  But the thing about perspective and focus is that your entire being follows where your perspective and focus are.  And so I do my best to fight off the “what if” and “if o…


Like a city that is broken down without walls is a man whose spirit is without restraint -Proverbs 2:28         In the heat of the moment, it is a foreign concept to pause, assess, process and get perspective about a situation. Because the blood is boiling; the responses are piling up on your tongue, and they…

Be Strong

Fear is a thief. A coward. It sneaks upon on you. It never can come to you plain and bold. It hides, lurks in the shadows, always waiting for an importune moment. It is always ready to be at war, ready to consume. Fear is passionate in its pursuit. Never relenting. And when it catches you, it isn't polite when i…

Expectations 1.1

" For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God " | Romans 3:23 | ** May you freely adjust your expectations, releasing control in order to gain peace. That is, even as you set them, may you be open to adjust or even let them go.  May you remember that just as you may verbally express yo…

My Gift

Give birth. You’ve held my gift too long. Yes, my gift. It isn’t just for you, don’t you know that? I’m waiting on you.  I can’t move if you don’t move. I’m sorry, but you are holding me hostage. I need you to release. You’re past due. You’ve been pregnant. You’ve been full of this blessing. Yes, it’s daunting.…


The thief comes only to steal, to kill, and to destroy... | John 10:10| Fight. Because if you don’t fight for what you want you won’t get it. You’ll spend years wondering why, when, at the edge of breaking through, it all shatters to pieces. Fight for what is yours. Be bold. Be desperate. Fight for your…

Heart Work

Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.  |Song of Solomon 2:15| * * You are tending to a garden. You left the gate open. The foxes came and spoiled the grapes. Well, they certainly went into the rose bed and made a mess. You have to start cleanin…


If there is no struggle, there is no progress. |Frederick Douglass|                                                                              ** Fall is here. The leaves are changing and the days are growing shorter. There is a chill in the air alluding to a long and frigid winter. Things are changing again…