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"Yet each man kills the thing he loves By each let this be heard Some do it with a bitter look Some with a flattering word The coward does it with a kiss The brave man with a sword”  |Oscar Wilde| ** * It’s light out. The sun has ascended to its peak, the occasional call of bir…

Even When It Hurts

Take this mountain weight Take these ocean tears   Hold me through the trial Come like hope again -- -Even When It Hurts---  | Hillsong United | T hese lofty ideals that you hold…it’s not that they are impossible. It’s that they require work. It’s not that they are beyond your reach. It’s that the…

In Love

You say that you are in love. What does love look like? Like everything that I lost come back to me. Like everything I ever wanted finding me. Like everything I was hiding from confronting me. Like everything I prayed for manifesting. Like everything I rebuked fighting me. Like everyth…


I beg you, please; don’t make me wait too long. I can barely summon the strength to hang on. Most days feel as though I am hanging over a cliff, clinging to rope, a 20,000 ft deep gorge waiting to swallow me whole. I often tell myself not to look down, continue to look up, to wait because help is on the w…


Help me to see the purpose in my suffering.  Open up my eyes that I may see what lesson I have missed What truth can I glean from this? Where have I erred?  As you work all things together for my good, open up my eyes of understanding, that I may behold the truth and walk in your div…