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                                                                                |Matthew 13:44-46|


Nothing is going to work unless you do. Because it isn’t working. It isn’t working because you are not supposed to be doing that. 
It’s safe... but safe isn’t working. The lid has been blown off the barrel. You’ve known for a while but it’s taking you too long to be confident about what you know. And so you keep walking around the same mountain, searching for the answer, but the answer is in your hands. You just won’t acknowledge it. You want something safe. Neat. Something that’ll make sense to everybody, and make sense to your feelings.
But safe isn’t going to make you happy. Not for long. Because after a while, that familiar sensation of dissatisfaction will come. This safe thing is a good thing, but you’ll be agitated, restless. It will feel wrong. The enthusiasm will go. It will become harder to put in the work for it. You’ll whisper out loud what you long for yet continue to fear pursuing it. 

You should be familiar with how life is. To fulfill your vision you must make sacrifices. A vision requires upfront payment. It hurts to give what you barely have, I know. I think it hurts more to sacrifice what you don’t want to part with. But if you want to stop circling this mountain you have to give it up. The light at the end of the tunnel will come once you let go. Let go of your fear, your rationalizing, your excuses. Don’t worry or be held hostage by what you should’ve, could’ve done. This is your door to walk through.

 Do you remember the story of the man who found treasure hidden in a field? He covered it up, and went away joyfully. He sold all that he had and bought that field. It was foolishness to them that saw him and observed him sacrifice all he had for a field that had nothing. But he’d discovered something of extraordinary value, and didn’t tarry, equivocating.
You have something remarkable in front of you. Be like the wise man. Why would he bury precious treasure and buy the entire field rather than take what he’d found and walk away? He discerned that as long as the treasure was in that field, the field itself ceased to be ordinary, nondescript as it were.
It is foolish and unwise to leave the treasure buried and fearfully skulking away. Sacrifice for it. Give your all for it. 

I knew of a merchant once, who’d go around in search of fine pearls. He stumbled upon a particularly unusual pearl of great worth. I watched him audaciously sell all that he had to buy the pearl.
And you. Do I have to tell you that you are that merchant who has found that fine pearl, exceptional, different from the others? I know you know that you have. Don’t toss it aside because no one sees what you see. And don’t you dare walk away because you are afraid. Pursue what you know is yours. Even if it’s just a field, empty and uncultivated.  It isn’t a safe choice, but safe isn’t meant for you.