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When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn’t need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that’s just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it’s just what you’ve been searching for all these years.” 
― Alex Garland, The Beach

You are seducing me. I’ve never had to work this hard to keep from falling. I call you four, five times because I love the way you answer the phone. Your voice is low, smooth, controlled. I don’t pay attention to what you say. I’m listening to the tones, the inflections of your accent; I hear your smile. Your voice lulls my senses and seduces my mind into forbidden territory. You unravel my self-control so effortlessly; I’m ashamed. I’m supposed to be stronger than this.
With others it is always no. With you, the yes rolls off my tongue too quickly, too easily.
I close my eyes to pray. To pray for self control. To pray to flee your seductions. It’s a half-hearted attempt; admittedly, I want to give in to you.
You ask me something and I say yes.
With you, I stumble over my words.
I can’t focus.
I forget my reasons why.
When I call you, your voice hypnotizes me.
With you, hello sounds like come here.* 

|Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak| Matthew 26:41

*Salt, by Nayirrah Waheed