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My experience of God is that He doesn’t follow a 3 step plan, or a 10 step plan in which you are seeing him move at each junction. Often, the closer you get to a looming deadline, the deadness of silence is disorienting. A flood of panic rushes over you, intent to drown you. I don’t have a solution for this place ot…
I remember a year after I’d started my job, I was offered the chance to train new people to the same position. I didn’t think that I was capable. I remembered how I initially struggled in the role, so I refused. But my supervisor insisted that I do it, so I took a chance and I’m glad that I did. That opp…
I wrote a blog post some months ago, and as I was scrolling through my archives looking for something to post today, I read it—and it ministered to me. Part of taking responsibility for the things that are assigned to you is understanding that they do not require the consent of a crowd. Sometimes, you’ll find yoursel…
I don’t go out of my way to be a role model. Why? When I was in school, teachers liked to throw that word around a lot. And if you’re the older kids, that word is the stick used to keep you in line. Initially, it felt good, because it acknowledged us as capable of making good decisions. We weren’t fully adults y…
I’ve stated in a few blog posts that people are not who they seem, that nothing is as it seems. And I was reminded of that again in the past couple of days. I’ve joked with some friends that children have good boundaries—because the same child who’s loving on you one day won’t want you the next day. It’s at their beh…
I feel like I don’t have much to say today. There isn’t anything that I haven’t said that I want to say or expand on necessarily. I hate days like this. I’m still personally working through this identity stuff. I wrote on shame the other week; I am sti…
"A large house contains not only vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay. Some indeed are for honorable use, but others are for common use. So if anyone cleanses himself of what is unfit, he will be a vessel for honour: sanctified, useful to the Master, and prepared for every good work." 2 Timo…
