I’m in a strange place with my writing. I’m in a strange place now because I’ve written so much about how I’ve been striving to overcome myself, my doubts, and all these things that have been getting in my way. But it’s not like that any longer. It’s not that I am struggling, but my head’s out of the fog; I can say that I’ve made it through the thick of it. My path is clear in the sense that I know now I have to put in the effort, the work. Before, it’s not that I didn’t want to put in the effort, it’s that a barrage of emotional and mental blocks stood in the way. But it’s not like that now. And because of this I’m at a loss for words. What do I write about now? Lol.
One thing about anxiety and confusion, it gives you much to write. These emotions often take you down seemingly mindless rabbit holes, but they often offer insight. And it has helped me spiritually, because in the journey of discovery I was also building, unbeknownst to me. In my journey to self-discovery, I build myself spiritually, becoming confident in the foundation that is Jesus. It’s not to say that it’s easy every day. But it has gotten better.
But I digress.
I know that I’ll navigate this new perspective with more action, and more faith. It helps that I have entered a new decade of life. I know I’ll do things differently this time around. I won’t put myself in a box of what I should do and who I should be. I’ll do the work I’m supposed to do, and pursue my interests. And I encourage the same for you: come out of the box that you’ve put yourself. And then step out of the box you’ve allowed to be put in. And then, don’t be too hasty to drive the ship that is your life. It’s ok to work on things little by little; it’s ok to start all over again. Don’t continue a path of disaster so that you feel that there’s movement, and you can prove to others that you’re doing something. The people who care will support you and allow you to flourish at your pace. We all have our own race to run, and we must run it well. I want all of us to run well; but run it with boldness, and strength, and assurance that even if you are the only one that’s changing, you’re assured that at the right time, things will also change.
I’ve heard Myles Munroe say the richest place on earth is the grave, because, and I hope I paraphrase it correctly, it’s full of life changing ideas and valuable gifts that never got realized. And I think one of the reasons why that happens is that we run races that are not our own, performing through life because we don’t understand what God intended, or too afraid to pursue what God keeps revealing.
Yeah, I was feeling lost, unsure what else I’ll write; but if anything, I’ll be encouraging myself, and would love to encourage you to live life purposefully. And I pray that that purpose be according to revelation and not according to your own will or what is common/trendy/popular.
And if you’d like, also share ways that you are living purposefully. What are your challenges, and how are you overcoming them?
