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But I have this against you: you have abandoned your first love – Revelations 2:4


You have forgotten me. You have forgotten all that I did for you. Often, you called on me for help and I came for you. Remember how stressed, unhappy, & uncertain you were, and I opened my arms to you, and I gave you peace. I gave you strength & hope, and a sense of purpose that you had lost. I assured you that in my hands every broken piece would be made new. Remember my word; I assured you that the latter days will be greater than your former ones.

But look at you now. You are full of accusations, and anger, letting your mouth speak words that it doesn’t understand. Everything else has your attention. Your heart’s weighed down by worry, and anxiety. Yes, everything looks frightful and uncertain to you. I see your eyes searching, searching for anything to give you hope; your fingers are grappling, desperate to hold on to something tangible. Your heart’s seizing, afraid of tomorrow. Is there a future to look forward to? Is there hope? Could tomorrow be your last day? Or the last day for your loved one? How will you make it? You question if there’s still a point to remaining here, that perhaps this has been one vicious experiment to cause suffering, and I, the puppet master behind it all.

Remember me; remember who I am.

What you lost I promised I could restore. I only asked that you trust me. Trust me. Believe me. You used to believe but everything else has your attention now. 

Remember what I did for you. Remember what I delivered you from. Remember the mercy that I showed you when you insisted that you did not deserve it. Remember when you chose your own way, but I still remained. Take your eyes off of what is causing you fright and stress and hopelessness, and turn back to me. I have not abandoned you. It is you who has walked away from me. Come back to me. 

Remember what I have done for you in the past. And come back to me.



Let the wicked man forsake his own way and the unrighteous man his own thoughts; let him return to the Lord, that He may have compassion, and to our God, for He will freely pardon.  Isaiah 55:7 

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