Hi, my name is Chenai Mbanga! Welcome to my blog! I write to encourage, inspire and empower you in growing in your spiritual life through reflections and prose. I have been writing on this blog for 5 years now, and it has been a journey! Join me as I continue my journey toward self-actualizing.❤


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Who Are You?

Tell me who you are. Really, tell me who you are; not what you do, where you are from, what nation you hail from, what language you speak, what your favourite colour is, your favourite music or brand of clothing. Tell me who you are when you stand naked in your room with your body in full view of you. Can you show me something that is extraordinary, something that time will not erode? Can you dig deep and hold it delicately in your hands and show me this treasure? Can you show me who you are without disguising your true self? Do you know this nature? Have you met it? Are you well acquainted, can you introduce me? Do you recognize it or are you still searching?  Are you still in the process of uncovering? Do you know that you are working to return to who you are as opposed to discovering who you are? Do you see that in returning to your true self you are simultaneously discovering yourself? The self is the Spirit in you, bursting in multi-colour, in innumerable hues and shades. It goes through different phases, explores, transforms, adorns; it casts off many things yet still remains itself. It is that core that I want you to comprehend, that core that remains unchanged, come what may.
We understand the world based on what we think is real, on what we see with our eyes, what we feel, what we touch, what we smell and hear and taste.  But perhaps we ought to think of it as the Matrix. Of the world that we see, and the world that is real.  Some spend all of their lives in the matrix, occasionally catching glimpses of the real, but unable to fully comprehend. Some are violently awakened to what is real after experiencing a catastrophe or a threat to their lives.  Our Spirits are the same. We are working to unplug, to return to who we are, to be Neo. We are working to free our minds so that we are able to live and create without boundaries; and when the day that troubles rain on us, we won’t surrender in defeat, but we’ll stretch forth our hands and suspend them in mid-air. That is who we are. Capable of extraordinary things. Possessing power to do all things, commanding our environment, exercising full dominion. That is who you are. Do you know this person? Are you still searching?

You are not the mistakes you make. You are not the mistake that another person made. You are a Spirit housed in a body, made manifest by God through the channel and circumstances and events that were beyond your control. Those circumstances and events are not you. God was showing off, reminding all of us that He can bring light out of darkness, that there is no evil, or negative situation that impedes Him from fashioning the rarest of all things: You.  And you are that Spirit, capable of creating anything that you desire out every circumstance. You have forgotten who you are, and so you struggle, and steal, and kill and destroy. But you are the Spirit of God that you must return to, discover, embrace and unleash.

|God spoke: “Let us make human beings in our image, make them reflecting our nature…” [so] God created human beings; he created them godlike, reflecting God’s nature. Genesis 1:26-28 {MSG.}|