Hi, my name is Chenai Mbanga! Welcome to my blog! I write to encourage, inspire and empower you in growing in your spiritual life through reflections and prose. I have been writing on this blog for 5 years now, and it has been a journey! Join me as I continue my journey toward self-actualizing.❤


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In Hindsight

"Unless the Lord builds the house, the builder builds in vain." |Psalm 127:1|


When I look back, I see how I was running aimlessly, pulled in various directions by what others thought was the perfect plan for me. But I was being pulled towards the gilded life that would satisfy others, and bring glory to an image of me that was not woven by God. And as long as I desired God’s purpose for me, I kept being pulled back because I did not then understand to be still and let Him lead. What looked good would bring glory to God either way right? Not at all.


I am assigned a race, one that I must run with all diligence and focus. I cannot allow myself to be distracted or shifted from my lane. I must make it to the end, and not be found wanting.  Some of us are running while looking to the side; some of us have veered off course and think just because we are running we are still on the right path. Some of us don’t want to be led back to the right road, despising the length and the obstacles in our way. But just because you are building and achieving does not mean you are ahead. Because unless the builder is God, you are building in vain. Although you may build here on Earth for the comfort of all your generations, you will be found wanting in heaven. 


So, I am choosing to run my race, overcoming the obstacles that I put in my own way, and those that life have erected; I will do everything that God is calling me to, without excuse or blame or fear.