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God's Plan

To reach deep within you and bring to light the broken, the dark, the hidden.
To heal in light; to birth you anew; to build in you a character that is in Him.
To open your eyes to the abnormal and conquer the thing that is unlike Him; to make you be more like the self you never knew you were.
To heal in you the broken things, the bad decisions, the unfair things, so that one day you may heal the broken foundations of many generations.
To open your eyes to the world around you and its desperate need for salvation. To build in you a leader who will lead a nation.
Your friend. Your sister. Your brother. Your son. Your daughter. Your colleague. Is a nation.
And so you will walk through the valley.
You will fight to spread your wings while contained in a cage.
You’ll writhe in discomfort. Scream yourself hoarse. You’ll push, and be pushed back. You’ll surrender and take it up again.
You’ll make mistakes, over and over and over again. You’ll lose focus. Question your own integrity.
He’ll lead you where it makes no sense. He’ll place you in a familiar place you’ll feel like a foreigner.
He’ll take you to a foreign place, and you’ll be a foreigner. He’ll unravel you and create in you a clean heart. And he’ll remove the shame and  embarrassment and transform you in your weakness.
He’ll give you a fresh word, a new voice, a bold spirit.
God’s plan is to expand your capacity. Yours is different from his. Hers. Theirs.
God’s plan is to award you the best, so that you may reflect his best as a city set on a hill, your light shining before men, and your good works bringing glory to His kingdom.
Give him the abominable, abhorrent, unsanctified, fearful you.
Leave the storied regrets behind. Who before you was perfect?